Sunday, December 29, 2013

Thank you, 2013!



This year has been full of highs and lows, just like anyone else’s life I’m sure. Lucky for us the highs outweigh the lows. We thought we were going to escape another year without a hospital admission but that wasn’t the case. However, Molly recovered quickly and handled everything better than I did. We also made another trip to the OR. We have yet to have a year where Molly didn’t end up in the operating room. We are hoping that 2014 will be the year! Molly was also diagnosed with A Pattern Esotropia which is an eye condition and requires her to wear glasses. Luckily, the glasses help and we were able to avoid a surgery…at least in the immediate future. We lost our little friend, Miracle Ryker, who was also born with Heterotaxy Syndrome. Though his time here was short he touched our lives and his passing affected us deeply. We hope that his mom & dad, Rachel and Jason, find comfort in there 4 other kids in the new year! 

With the bad comes the good. We celebrated Molly’s 3rd birthday in May! She wasn’t really having it and wasn’t in a great mood but we still made the best of it. It’s a celebration of more than just her birthday but a celebration of her life and all that she has overcome! She truly is a miracle. She also transitioned out of Early Intervention and into outpatient therapy in May. I was very excited about this change and it turns out I had a good reason to be. Molly has made great progress since starting therapy. Her therapists love her and are so happy with all of the progress she has made. When she started therapy in June she was still crawling around.  Six months later she walks like she’s been doing it all of her life. We still struggle with speech but again she has come so far. She is saying words and her vocabulary is huge. We know she still has a lot of work to do but we are confident that she will catch up in no time!


June is my second favorite time of year because that is when we participate in the NStar walk for Boston Children’s Hospital. This year we raised $6500!!!!!! We couldn’t have done it without all of the donations from our friends and family and even some strangers. The whole experience of walking for Children’s Hospital is so exciting, emotional and meaningful to us. We love that we have started this tradition with Molly and we hope she will continue to do it into her adult years. It feels great to give back and I can’t wait to do it again in 2014!

September was also an exciting month because Molly was able to have her g tube successfully removed! I really didn’t have any expectations of when it was going to come out when we had it placed but I did not think it was going to be that fast, especially because feeding was so stressful and difficult for her. But once again she overcame the odds and proved me wrong.
October! What a fun month for us as we headed on our Make A Wish trip to Disney World. This was a once in a life time experience that Jay & I will treasure forever. Sure, we will be able to go back but the experience the three of us had will never be replicated. We had the time of our lives and if you are ever looking to donate to a charity, Make A Wish is another amazing organization. They provide dreams to children with life threatening illnesses. It allows the child and their families a time away from their life to forget about doctors appointments, needles, testing, etc. It’s something we will always be grateful for and we will never forget!

We had a wonderful year and it’s all because of this little girl that has taught us so much and brought so much joy into our lives. Our lives will never be the same but they are so much better because of one little girl that was born with a broken heart and an anatomy that still keeps many scratching their heads! It is going to be tough topping this year but we are going to have a great time trying!

Happy New Year to all!

Thursday, December 12, 2013

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!



I have a love hate relationship with this time of year. I love it for all of the obvious reasons…the decorations, the lights, the joy on Molly’s face when she sees a snowman or Santa (not the real thing of course), the excitement that she brings to this holiday season and most importantly that we have a happy & healthy (for the most part) 3 ½ year old to share another Christmas with.


This time of year brings back so many memories that I would rather forget about and I really try so hard to put them away but it’s a feeling that I get when I drive by the farm up the street because that’s where we were when I miscarried. I will never be able to shake the feeling that I get when I think about this time of year 4 years ago when we found out that there was something wrong with the baby’s heart. Our crazy journey started this time 4 years ago. We were on top of the world. We had tried so hard to get pregnant and here we were finding out that we were having a girl. Eight days after we found out that the baby was a girl, I received a phone call from the OBGYN telling me we had to get into Boston for a level II ultrasound ASAP. A few days before Christmas we found out that the baby did not have Down’s Syndrome but the heart defects had been confirmed. We were devastated. Now we were supposed to celebrate this Christmas and every Christmas to come remembering how we felt at that moment . The weeks and months to follow were full of doctors appointments, testing, consults, tears, stress and very little laughter.  Last night I let myself think about that time and it made me so sad. But today is a different day. I am reminded how extremely lucky we are. Molly is doing better than most people every expected. Of course she had a rough start but she will never remember any of it. She is a great kid, well behaved, very little trouble, so smart, beautiful inside and out, so funny and entertaining but most importantly she is HEALTHY and that is the greatest Christmas gift of all. I have never considered myself materialistic but gifts are no longer important to me. All that is important is the health and happiness of the person that has forever changed my life. I have said it a million times but I know our journey could’ve went a completely different way but Molly is sitting across from me, watching the same episode of Sofia the First that she has watched 50 million times this week all because of Boston Children’s Hospital, all of the doctors and nurses and surgeons. It makes me beyond happy to know that they do perform miracles and Molly is living proof. Unfortunately, there are several families that are celebrating this holiday without their little ones at home, whether they are in the hospital or have gone to heaven. I think about all of them every single day. My heart breaks for them but I hope they take comfort in everyone that they are surrounded by this holiday. Make sure you appreciate all that you receive for the holidays and don’t take one second of the season for granted!
Much Love & Happy Holidays!
                            Playing outside with her cousin this past weekend!!

                                     Molly's first Christmas spent at Children's!